Number 3 Surprises

Last night was date 3. Although D tells me not to downplay it so much if I'm just going to keep going out with him, but I've always been one to put the cart before the proverbial horse so I'm just taking everything with a slow and easy stride.


Plus, he's around a year out of a big relationship too; so, right now we are just enjoying each other's company. And we do...


There are several things I have noticed about him that I thought I'd share...


I do not fidget around him. I found myself sitting still and silent beside him, enjoying his arm around my shoulder and feeling him play with my hair and realized, "Whoa, I haven't moved or spoken in several minutes. That's a record." In fact I picked my head up and he just gently put it back on his shoulder and resumed playing with my hair. Seriously, you have no idea what it means to not be in constant motion; hell, I didn't even know what it was like until recently. Of course, I had to think back at that point for the definitive proof that at no time did I remember ever tapping, squirming, swaying, rocking, or rambling while in him presence. It's almost like I don't have to; like my brain decides to give my time off for good behavior and let me rest. Crazy wild.

I've always wondered what it was like to actually be calm and relaxed and for a few hours each weekend I get to find out. It's so super cool!!!

Regardless of what happens with this, I know know beyond a doubt that I will eventually marry someone calm who can transfer that calm to me.  I gotta live like that! 

 I just wish I knew how to do that on my own. *sigh*